[Not So] Caféine-intoxiqué..

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Hell, you're so overly condescending. And you think I need an attitude adjustment? Go to hell and the devil's gonna be on his knees, but who cares? Go screw up his world, not mine, you hypocrite.

Not even a terribly ambiguous, vulgarity-flooded blog post is going to make me better.
How can she do that? In front of everyfudgecaking person in my house? How can she bloody hell do that?

Leniency, heard of it?

Ezzrriiieeeeee worded out at 11:14 PM

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Saturday, May 30, 2009

Umm, Jill. If you're reading this, and is that small excerpt was for me, I'm so sorry. I really am. It's disappointing and I hate being like that. But yeah. I am. I guess I'm not over the fact that my brother died 1 week before exam, and I guess that's what made me so mad because if I actually could, I wouldn't have gotten really fudged up marks because of it. But yeah, I'm sorry if that was directed to me. I really, really am.

Gastritis, go burn in gastrointestinal hell! 7 hours, pshhh.

On the bright side, I like chicken.

"I want to fall of a cliff. Willingly. I don't want to look up, but down. Down till I crash."

This is gonna be a horrible holiday.

Ezzrriiieeeeee worded out at 11:32 AM

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Thursday, May 28, 2009

Two left feet.

For the record, yes Fiona, I HAS A KID ON MY BLOG *GASPSHOCKHORROR*

Tag. Awesome since I have no stuff for a post.

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
I lol at Fiona's answer. But uhhh, I don't randomly get kissed at the lips, so I wouldn't know or care about any other places.. [See also. I'm a kissing vigin :D]

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
Babies snore?! /Hell, I need my sleep/ My eyes were sore/ Mummy in Shanghai yet?

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with?
I quote Fiona's answer ''The PMR Smart People. haha.'' I do not belong there. I belong in a rural place in a rural country with 7 smart people within a 10km radius. And the best part, I'm not one of them.

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?
Not really. I do get what I want, but not all the time. I get things I REALLY want, and not 11.p.m snack cravings from 7/11. For the most part, I'm not spoiled. There's really nothing anyone can spoil me with. Too much of a geek~

5. Will you ever donate blood ?
Fi, you're an AB??? Lol, you kedekut person. And HELL YEAH, I would happily donate my blood. I'm AB. So go figure.

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex ?
When I was 5 to 7? Yeah.

7. Do you want someone to be dead?
No. We're all gonna die anyway and saying I want someone dead is just making the whole process shorter. That person, whoever it might be should suffer 67 years of life and then just die. It's a slow, agonizing process. Twisted, maybe, clever, VERY.

8.What does your last text message say?
...I have no credit, you lidiot..

9. What are you thinking right now?
I'm gonna be alone in class tomorrow. Meh, at least no Kpop and someone shoving the guilt onto me. There, I said it.

1O. Do you want someone to be with you right now ?
Odd but I'll go with the Piemaker. The Piemaker, right now. I want pie.

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
As if I can remember, psshh. Okay, fine 12.

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
Absolutely no idea. It's like asking me where I buy my food from. I don't care, but it's just there. And while it's there, utilize it, dammit.

13. Is someone on your mind right now?
Not in particular. PiemakerPiemakerPiemaker.

14. Who was the last person who text you?
Anna? Idek. My phone's euphuistically a mile away.

Ten random people I choose for me to continue this quiz
Dude, I do not tag random people. Do I really look I would go up to any random person on the streets and say "Yo homie. You've been tagged to do a tag on my blog. For shiz, yo."
And if you actually think of it, it's weird considering you can't walk in any random pavement in Malaysia without getting run over by a Mat Rempit.
You crazy people.

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Wednesday, May 27, 2009


I'm not exactly free yet. Though it's after exam, I've been keeping myself busy with..

[cue drama music]

Teaching an 8th month old how to walk. With the use of a walker. I'm not exactly the biggest fan of kids here, [See Also : I HATE KIDS] but :D he's such a happy, little baby, so it's okay.
Dates are as usual, screwed up.

See, first he was super happy and bouncy.

And then he got bored.

And I kept on forcing him to walk.. So he just ignored me.

And finally, he just gave up and went emo-ing

So, Sejarah's a big BLEH on my part. I feel angrier at myself than how angry my parents are going to be at me. Sigh.


Clare and I spent half an hour debating about how scary Sonia seems to people. SEE, 5 to 1 say so, fiancee dearest.
So while we were surveying, Joevy the anti-climax baby kangaroo came! :D

Is Sonia scary?
Is Sonia scary?
No la.
Is Sonia scary?
JOEVY! Is Sonia scary?
*super nervous face*
..Ummm...*stares at bowl of chee cheong fan* Is that warm?

Anti-climax betul.

Boring post. I'mma go sleep and saunter around an abyss of despondency afterwards.

Ezzrriiieeeeee worded out at 4:04 PM

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Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Sin Sim City LOVE


ANNABELLE YAM, why did it go lost in the mail?? Let's go kill that person who lost my Sims2!

*sharpens fork*


Oh and SIMS 3 SIMS 3 SIMS 3!!
See that thing on my sidebar, that's how much I'm looking forward to it's release. I've read the entire game development, and all those long hours customization? Let's just say it's worth the wait. Sims 3, is going to be undeniably EPIC.

Ahh. So this is the one Fi was talking about.

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Lol at America. Poor whole thing's black.

Ezzrriiieeeeee worded out at 10:36 PM

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Sunday, May 24, 2009

Pimples and ulcers

Start hell singing: Sixpence None The Richer - Kiss Me

Grandmum needs a bit of credit for making me snort Milo out of my nose.

"You know, *grabs hands*, when your Grandpa and your auntie were sick, I asked her to pray for them. And then you know what happened? She prayed for your aunt, and your grandpa died!"

Oh, anorexic ol' lady of mine, you are awesome. How I love thee to polyatomic-sized bits.

I have a question to ask.
Am I really THAT thin? Cos', at GB that day, someone asked me if my jeans were skinnies, because they already look so thin and it didn't help that it looked kinda loose and that they weren't skinnies to begin with.
So yeah, am I really that thin? If I am, it must be the whole vegetarian thing, and the fact that I don't eat during recess.
...Which is, when you think about it, a bit dangerous.

Well then.
Eat more.
Oreos and junk food.
Amen, sister.

Ezzrriiieeeeee worded out at 11:03 PM

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Saturday, May 23, 2009

There she goes again

Start hell singing: Kris Allen - Heartless

I have to admit, though somewhat poignantly that Kris Allen is suave. His Heartless rendition has a hotness rating of 10 'cili padis' at one go.
Pshh. I haven't been updating this despondent, little place over here. In fact, I won't be lying if said that I'm biased towards the other one. :D

See, I've being having my Mid Year exam for the last 2 weeks and hell, I'm ired like fructosing hell. So don't mind the jaded kid over here, kay?

I've got Clare's approval on Star Trek, and I'll be watching it somewhere next week. Star Trek for the win, Zach Quinto/SYLAR is hot.

And I'll continue this post later. I.Am.TIRED.

Ezzrriiieeeeee worded out at 6:15 PM

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Saturday, May 16, 2009

I need to get some things out.
I'm not blaming anyone, it's just easier to blame someone. But I can't find anyone who's perfect enough, so I'm left with nothing but guilt-ridden self.
I can't blame you for having a bad life. You didn't make it bad, it just sometimes is, right? You've told me that before.
But yeah, it wouldn't have hurt that much if you actually told me.

And no, to anyone who's reading this, it's not what you think.

But, regarding that. That of what I think you're thinking.
Suffice to say, I don't know what to feel. Is that even possibly? Not knowing what to feel? I'm glad emotions exist, regardless whether it's painful or not, the real pain lies in being a complete void.
I feel like a hypocrite, making fun and laughing about my brother's death. Am I just deluded by the fact that he's still with me. With us? Is it even true?
I just need affirmation.
Affirmation that everything's gonna be okay.
That nothing has changed
That I can still go into his room without feeling like something's missing
when nothing is.
Nothing has left, right?

The 4oth day
the 40th goodbye.
And the 1st beginning.

Ezzrriiieeeeee worded out at 12:05 AM

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Thursday, May 14, 2009

For hellsake, and because the History textbook and my hands have this mutual contempt going on, I'm blogging.
First off, I virtually failed my Biology test, completely. Irreversibly. Wholly. I'm not even going to try and come up with any pathetic excuse to blame it on anyone, this entirely my fault. My fault for not studying enough. And probably my family's fault for having prayers everyday. Mine for not drinking enough coffee [shame!] and, umm, would it be plausible is I said that it was my brother's fault for...dying in the first place?

Right. Shame.

"How can they even be best friends, they talk so vaguely! Like they don't talk at all!"

Right. Wouldn't you like to know?

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Tuesday, May 12, 2009


Assuming, just assuming that Helena's completely strict in her marking, I think I'll be able to get a B in English. A B at best.

Honestly, I've given up on my MidYear altogether, it's pointless, and not to mention poignant to study for something I can't possibly pass. I'm just doing it to get a D or a C or maybe even an E at best. I'm not trying to prove anything, and I'm most definitely not trying to be unsurpassed in my class, so forget it. No, screw it. I'm not studying. :S

Okay, maybe a bit more for History, I like history.

Fine, call me a cutthroat racist or impious or something, but seriously, I don't see the point of mixing religon with history. I don't care whether it was Jerusalem, or under a tree or in a cave, or in Nepal or something, I don't care. I care about facts, HISTORICAL facts, not religion. Religion's a totally different thing from history, so they can't possibly mix without having some opinions clash, right? And what about atheist? You're gonna call them stupid for being agnostic? You can't. You can't without ultimately proving to the world what a dimwitted, narrow-minded twat you are.

5 chapters, gila kah? Aiyoo.Renessaince pun aku tak endah. Ishh.

Oh and by the way, BM was done with epik proportions of phail.
I fudgecaking flunked my BM with a smile and numb hands.
And I think Cik Laila's gonna mutilate me for my handwriting, it was worse than cakar ayam. It was just, anchovies. Anorexic anchovies.

Ezzrriiieeeeee worded out at 12:34 AM

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Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Studying for Piawai Mid-Year = PHAIL!

I'll phail everything, even English.
Maybe a D in Bio is possible. Deskmate sayang, I'm not lying, the only thing I've been studying pathetically for is Biology. And that's guaranteed PHAILURE coming on.

MID YEAR IS EPIK PHAIL. Like, super-epik.

Ezzrriiieeeeee worded out at 12:13 AM

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Monday, May 4, 2009

Ah fudgecake.
I wish there was more that just 'Thank yous' and hugs.
I wish there really was more to express how much I love you guys.

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Sunday, May 3, 2009

That puppy that runs 140m/h.

I'll get better, eventually. I somewhat am right now.
Because I know now, that my brother's in a better place, better than anything he could possibly deal with here.

I'm going to keep on thanking, endlessly for everything.
Especially Andrina, Sonia, Jill, Jo, Shannon, Kristal and Joel for coming when I needed you guys the most. Being there, holding me when I was crying my heart out, in the church and the cemetery, it just made things so much easier.
And Val, Julian, Patrina, Terence and Monty for their words..

Thanks a lot, guys.. You can't possibly imagine how much I love you guys for this. The words, they don't measure up.
But ultimately, thank you.

You know, I've just experienced the worst day of my life so far. It doesn't seem so bad now.
At least I know that angels aren't defined by wings and halos.

Ezzrriiieeeeee worded out at 4:30 PM

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