[Not So] Caféine-intoxiqué..

Monday, August 31, 2009


Start hell singing: Frankmusik - Done Done

O_o I've forgotten how to write with a pen/pencil.

Okay well, chronic(WHAT?!)cles of meh day[s]

Woke up at 7. Cursed at people. Went to Penang with the Mum, Dad, Sis. Got intoxicated with the car smell xD. Sang LOUDLY. Got kicked by Sis. Played Burnout Dominator since my old Save File was scrapped. Reached Penang. Found out that the requiem Mass was at 8.30 and we reached there at 10. Awesome, right? :D Spent the whole morning frolicking around the cemetery [?] praying for unknown people. Found out that I have a cousin called Riley who lives in England. I kid you not! Made a credible list..

Half-List Of Songs You Can Sing With Earphones Plugged On [That Might Convince Your Parents That You Are Indeed, Gay.]

- Black Kids - I'm Not Gonna Teach Your Boyfriend How To Dance With You
"You are the girl that I've been dreaming of ever since I was a little girl"

- Teddy Geiger - She's On My Mind
"And she said goodbye
I think about it all the time
She's on my mind
I wish I had her in my life
Well She said goodbye
She said goodbye"

- The Academy Is...- About A Girl
"One song about a girl
Can't breathe when I'm around her
I'll wait here everyday
In case she'll scratch the surface
She'll never notice"

- Forever The Sickest Kids - She's A Lady
"I'm in love with the girl I hate
She enjoys pointing out every bad thing about me.
I'm in love with a critic and a skeptic, a traitor
I'd trade her in a second."

- The All-American Rejects - Damn Girl
"Damn girl
Dry your eyes
You stole my heart and then you kicked it aside
No girl you cant see
When hes inside you
Know there's no room for me"

- Rooster - Come Get Some
"Are you gonna shout it from the rooftops honey?

Tell me I'm the only one,
Kick him to the curb baby don't stop running,
Tell me are you gonna come get some,
Did you ever ask yourself the question,
Where the hell did I go wrong?
'Cos you know when it's through I'll be waiting for you,
So tell me how you're gonna come come get some?"

Okay fine, maybe not Rooster but hey, the song rules hell, so why the fudgecake not? :D

Eff this, I can't give you an in depth explanation of my day.

I went for Sonia's Confirmation BBQ 3 hours late, talked and talked and drank Coke xD Watched Rugrats and that Creepy cartoon with the kids. Tried to explain what's 'jizz in my pants' to Sonia. Utter phail. And uhm, HER DOGS ARE ALL SO DARN CUTE. Rottweilers and Labradors get really boring after some time..
Sang What's My Age Again? with the Blink-182 buddies. Wicked awesome.

AND, we slept at 3.03. Awesome, right?
Okay fine la my phone runs 15 minutes fast but still, 3.03 sounds cool right?

Conclusion : Andrina has mood swinging body parts, Sonia's nose runs marathons and she has designer things. Eg : Levi and LV and Marc Jacobs xDDDD

Oh hey, Happy Birthday Malaysia. Live your life, despicable thing.
Went out with Andrina, Sonia, Marc Jacobs/Bryan, Shannon and Terence. Sure felt like there were more people though. It was kinda boring though, *shrugs* must be the H1N1 or something.
Wonder what happened to all the talking? AND ZOMFG EWW WE SAW SOMETHING DISTURBING. *shudders*

Lolcopter at the game shop.

"...I want a business card *grabs one*"
"He's cute."
"I KNOW RIGHT?! *waves business card*"
"Does he look like an [random name] or [random name]?"
"Dunno la. He damn cute la! GO ASK HIM!"
"LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL. Take both the cards!"

Seriously la, the guy's damn cute in a nerd way. AND ZOMG, he said 'No' in Tamil to me. Kinda odd but he looked so cute doing it so xD I think he recognized Shan and I cos' we go there a hell lot. I guess he didn't think we were best friends too xD

I still think we pissed him off a bit but dammit, Idek, what do you say to people like him?

I don't care-are-are-are-are-are
Song's so addictive.

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Sunday, August 30, 2009


It's a Sunday, it's a LAZY SUNDAY.

Let's hit up Magnolia and knack on some cupcakes

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Saturday, August 29, 2009

Oh Lol.

Damn, their Confirmation rocked.

You are now, in the words of the bishop, ready to join the seminary and convent.

FINE LA. I ADMIT, I'm jealous, SIKIT. No, VERY. No, slightly.
And holy crap, you guys are NOT, I sternly repeat, NOT coming to my Confirmation. Neither are you gonna hold up a board saying "WE LOVE YOU,EZZ!" I'll kick you out of the church XDD


Pics should be up on blogs soon. I didn't bring my camera :\

Even Terence/DADDEH came. Poor dude went to OMPH and then texted me saying he didn't know it was SMC. Doesn't matter cos' he got there anyway.

There's currently a Choc Indulgence cake in my fridge that's begging to be eaten, SO BYE~


Notice the ones in white, don't they look GORGEOUS?!
And the non-Confirmants people are wearing black, grey, or whatever shade of brown/green that is.
Ftr, Sonia, you don't look much like an Elizabeth to me. But can I still call you Lizzie? :D

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Friday, August 28, 2009

Ghetto post.

I'm On A Boat [Up Version]

I'm on a house and
It's going up and
I got a thousand balloons tied to its roof, man
I rule the sky, birds ain't got nothing on me
You still walk on land, man, go bang a fudging tree.

Sort of la. We rapped this in front a of toddler and he liked it! xD

Yours truly has been bawred


ZOMG GUYS. Go do this. Type "Stephanie Meyer is" into Google's searchbar and see what search options you get. I lol-ed hard.


Tropic Thunder is kinda disgusting but honestly, thiz some real good shiz right here, suh!

Kevin Sandusky: There's no way we make it over that ridge before sundown.
Kirk Lazarus: All right fellas, we're gonna make camp, rest up. Y'all might be in for a treat. You know back before the war broke out I was a saucier in San Antone. I bet I could collar up some of them greens, yeah, some crawfish out the paddy, yo'! Ha! I'm makin' some crabapples for dessert now, yo! Hell yeah, ha!
Alpa Chino: [mocking Kirk] Hell yeah! Ha! That's how we all talk? We all talk like dis, "suh"? Yes suh, ha! Yeah mmm-hmm get some crawfish, and some ribs, ha! Ye-aah. You're Australian! Be Australian! Excuse me, Kangaroo Jack!
[hops away like a kangaroo]
Kirk Lazarus: [confused] I get excited about my foods, man.
For anyone who's wondering how RDJ got nominated for an Oscar for this movie


Man it's Hollywood. Everyone's gay once in a while

Sandunsky's adorable!

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Thursday, August 27, 2009

River, Sea, Ocean, Me.

Is anyone bored? Or is it just me? Because I normally don't post EVERYFREAKINGDAY, unless I'm bored.

Yeah, I'm bored, alright.

*runs off to Facebook*
*runs off to lurk around blogs*
*runs off to download music*


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Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Call me biased, but imho, British bands pwn American ones. Seriously, they do.

Damn, Florence's voice is *melts*

Gossip Girl

Yeah, it's that time of the year again. New seasons start and the interwebz will be full of outside-US people like me desperate for season updates.


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Note : If you are in a euphoric state or have recently gotten engaged or married, please do not read. If you are sick of me babbling endlessly about how much life sucks, please press Alt+F4 and be out your way. If you are a self-proclaimed awesome being, gtfo, and if you are someone with a Messiah-complex, stfu&gtfo.
Have I made myself clear?

Well then.

I'm not pissed I'm not pissed I'm not pissed I'm not pissed I'm not pissed I'm not pissed I'm not pissed I'm not pissed I'm not pissed I'm not pissed

Like hell I'm not.

Plans, ruined. The usual circumstances. The burning urge to say something very sarcastic for a certain someone to see is clawing my insides but I've decided that my blogpost is not worth an ungrateful hypocrite. So fudgecake you.
How contradictory.

Oh but Jill, I still love you, sayang. Good luck coping ;)

And the questions never stop.

"So, Ezz, what are you doing for the holidays?

Holidays? I've been planning on dressing up like a horseradish and rolling over the sand...wait..WHAT HOLIDAYS? Sorry, but I never noticed if was the holidays already, I've been too busy parading in self pity, hell, I didn't even notice I was still alive.
Either that or I'm wrecking homes on Sims 3.

As you can see, the bloglady is incredibly pissed right now. Mainly pissed, no, FULLY pissed with herself.

Honestly, I can't tell you how much of a fudgecaking idiot I am. Snap your damn self out of it, you moron. I don't care if it's gonna be 4 months or 40 million hours. Just snap smack yourself out of it. You tell yourself you're gonna be okay, and then you go post barely comprehensible bullcrap on your blog showcasing what a self-contradicting nut you were from the very beginning. For Chrissake, what the hell is wrong with me? Look, if I'm fine, I'm fine. If I'm not, THEN DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT INSTEAD OF PRACTICALLY MARINADING YOURSELF IN DEPRESSION, YOU JACKHOLE.. Woe is me and if depression was a pasta sauce, I'd be one that expired 10 years ago.. Bad, bad sauce. That doesn't make sense, but like hell anything does right now.

I really need to get out of this mess I've set myself in. It's not worth my time but I'm in it anyways. I don't know why, and I wish I did so I could just solve the unsolvable but no, I can't because I'm not capable. It doesn't make much sense anymore but I'm not gonna care.
I'm just not going to care anymore, okay?

Look, I'm over the fact that my brother's dead, alright? I've learned to accept it, I've swallowed the ice, I've cried the tears, bled out the sodium chloride couldn't resist xD and now I'm done. I'm done with it. I need to learn to enjoy every stinking minute I'm living in this goddamn world and stop being so dismal. That and I need to be stop being such a depressed, pain in the arse.
If regaining my composure means having to do 400+ hours of social work in Myanmar or Ethiopia, then bring it on. I'm willing to do it.

I can never ever replace my brother and tbh, no amount of happiness can. I won't subvert the fact that I miss him like hell and as each day passes, there's nothing in the world I want more than to die just so that I can see him again. It's a risk I'm willing to to take. And there are times when I doubt God and his ways.. I mean who knows? I might never be able to see my brother again, right? But maybe, just maybe, doubt IS a good thing for me after all. It keeps you sane, it keeps you hopeful, and most of all, in a [probable] long run, it seals your faith. Till the end.

Who wouldn't want that? ;)

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Sunday, August 23, 2009

Deskmate was here, weren't you?
And yeah, I just gave away my Facebook, Blogger, Youtube, MSN password and email to 4 people simultaneously.
So right now, Jill, Joyce, and Jo know.
ook around, spam if you'd like, just don't write something like I'm secretly a ninja monk from Tibet. Although that sounds pretty cool.

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Saturday, August 22, 2009

In addition to the positive critical reviews the film received, Up highlights Pixar's corporate image as an altruistic company through its charitable acts. In June 2009, a 10-year-old girl from Huntington Beach, California was suffering from the final stages of terminal vascular cancer. It is reported her dying wish was to "live to see the movie" despite the advanced stage of her disease. However, due to her deteriorating condition, the girl was unable to leave the family home. As a result, a family friend contacted Pixar and arranged for a private screening. A Pixar employee flew to the Huntington Beach home with various Up tie-in toys and a DVD copy of the film. The child could not open her eyes due to the pain caused from the cancer, so her mother described the film to her scene by scene. The young girl died approximately seven hours after the screening ended.[61]


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Friday, August 21, 2009

200th post is NOW

Start hell singing: Blink-182 - Feeling This

:D I've just experienced the most EPIK Final Fantasy duel on my Dissidia demo. And no, I didn't cosplay as Kefka O_o and go katana-berserk on Shannon.

I beat Kekfa!
Playing Sephiroth!
In under a minute.

I kinda expected Kefka to be insanely difficult but he's kinda easy, his voice still creeps me out though.
...I beat this guy, scary reminiscent of The Joker, right? Using..

Pwned, btches :D

But seriously, if Kefka's this easy in the real game, I'm gonna auger myself 4 feet deep underground with a leaked bottle of cyanide. ;D

Skipped school today, self-quarantine is the shiz. And umm, I've been living in a lie for about 27 hours.
Get well, babes.

I'm off to read CH and Unreality. So bye


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Yo sunshine homie,


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Wednesday, August 19, 2009

What the fudgecake is MY problem?

"Nothing in life is permanent. Death is the only exception."

I found today a wee bit morbid than usual. I think Sonia'll agree here :D
I'm alone, I tell you. Dead alone for the hols.

I'm just gonna go watch a movie with my non-Catholic, Korean friends instead. Pimpin', oh yes. Let's watch おくりびと and I'unno, some madfunny movie... Like The Dark Knight :D

Walked around school today, high on ethanol-based hand sanitizer. BM marks were depressing because my rumusan was effed up. It was inevitable. I should've seen it coming when I did the damn paper. My piawai is just really, really screwed.
And our class choir? Let's just say the soprano line has been extrapolated. Even more.

..Rosetta Stone lol. It's a stone. Stupid Y! Answers.

You're an exaggerated version of, well, yourself.

Dammit, Confirmation retreat.Damn you Catholics.
Ezz, you're Catholic.

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Monday, August 17, 2009

Guess what?
The most simple way put, I want to die. :)
Nope, you're not going to miss this stupid bitch. So there

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Friday, August 14, 2009

Crazy awesomeity

Voices.: Regina Spektor - Fidelity

Before I start, R.I.P Les Paul, the greatest revolutionizer of rock and roll.

Today was very...very cathartic? I guess so, in an ironic way. Apart from getting psuedo-screwed by the lady-who-can't-be-speaking-proper-Engrish for God knows what my hair is neat thankyouverymuch. Go bug a lala person, twas a dead lazy Friday, and every period was pretty much sluggishly cool.
Made the Form 4s in morning prayer sing All The Small Things since the only thing I wanted to do that time was sing it with Sonia. Cos' singing Blink182 songs with Sonia is awesome. But they joined in, so what the hell la. xD Too bad Clare didn't come. Get better babe!

PJ : Played BADminton with the legendary, 250 year old Jill. Jill didn't wear socks today. She be pimpin' cos she didn't get caught. My best friend is badass yo~

Add Maths : Phailed at using the calculator to find out Σx.
Mr C thinks our whole class are complete technophobic idiots when it come to calculators.

Bio : PEKA was mindnumbingly, insanely cool. Miss Joyce is awesome, yeah? 'Legend' and I talked about how much of a bad friend she comes across as. I still have this urge to point this out to you dear, that you ARE NOT a bad friend. If you were a completely [and I mean FULLY] mean bitch, we won't be friends, love. It's just that yeah, ignorance is bliss and maybe some people need words but hey, what can we possibly say to make the world turn around? Ignorance is slow bliss

Recess : Best subject of the day Nuff' said.. Anna makes REALLY good chocolate cake. Damn you, I want more cake. Grr.

English : Madam H was in such a happy mood today. She got pissed at one point but meh, it's virtually impossible to stay neutral at my class. We're acidic like ascorbic acid. Did The Lotus Eater, a poignant little thing that scarred my head the whole day after that.
Found out that Mr Wong's leaving the school for one in Menglembu. He wasn't exactly our most favourite teacher, but I think I'll miss him. Geo and EA for 2 years kinda leaves a mark eventually. But no more gardening woot~! Hopefully, we get Nurzila for EA, she's nice. And she likes my hair :D

Oh my God I'm writing like 'her.' JILL. HELP.

Chemistry : Zilch. Nil. Zero. We spent one whole period reading the newspaper and coming up with an English name for Shu Qi [SHERYL!]. Babbled endlessly about The Nanny and spent the next 10 minutes trying to find Joyce an English name. You still look like a unisexual-named person. :D

Can't comment on CF since I bailed at 2.30 for SquatchxD Practice xD. Pn Jessy's how to spell ah? Am I the only one who thinks it's weird to call her Mrs Jessy husband came to preach. Can I get an AMEN for God? xD

AND I'VE COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT the Chemistry lab assistant is nice.

Squatch practice was...squirmy. Oh yeah, Sonia, you squirmy serial killer with an attitude problem, you make me lol, my Blink182 friend :D
Physics tuition was naptime. Until we saw the table, of course. JiaYun, we have news for you.

But the best part about school today was the continous talking with Jill. I miss talking so much to you, do you know that? :) I'm glad we still have conversations like these to remind me why we've been friends for eons.

"I'm a Legend. I'm Jill Legend. What's the name of that movie? With Will Smith?"
"I Am Legend."
"Yeah. I AM Legend."

"It's an unlikely friendship."

Yeah. She's a 250-year old legend, my deskmate is. She's also made up of 250000000000 watt of AWESOMENESS.

Word out.

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Wednesday, August 12, 2009

...Hi, I'm back.
Sort of, I didn't even take my papers today.

Menstrual cramps, YOU SUCK!

But uh yeah. JOANNA LEE, I HATE YOU. But on the other hand, do you know where to get that Kuroki Meisa/Horikita Maki TOTALLY STRAIGHT photobook. I need it for uh, physics experiment :D
And I was gonna picspam, but uh :Q_____________________

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Sunday, August 9, 2009

Mid-Term Assessment's tomorrow.
I couldn't care less. No, actually I could.
See, I'm studying right now. While silently cursing at the MU and Chelsea game.
Technically, I COULD care less. For all you know, I might as well grab something from the liquor cupboard and get frunk [go figure :D], one night before my exam.

But I plan to do that after the exam.

Bye bye people. Be back on Wednesday with a huge grin spelling out PHAIL on my face and possibly a. Ah nevermind.

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Friday, August 7, 2009

Pecah kepala :D

:D Peterpan - Ku Katakan Dengan Indah

It hit me.
It hit me hard and now I feel like spreading the love.......later, cos' first, AddMaths, my puzzling love is calling me.

This is for anyone who has a bad, morbid sense of humour.

And just to get some things cleared up for my own ego to digest, I'm nice..
In a sickly sweet way,
in a genuine way,
in a vague way,
in a twisted way,
to all the right people,
to mostly the wrong people,
to the unwanted ones,
to the ones who should't have it,
at the wrong time,
at the right time,
all the time,
with a Messiah-complex,
and a godly one too.

I need mean-tips from Jill.
Deskmate, you should be a therapist. I'll pay you 2000 bucks per session just to hear you tell me how much I suck. xD

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You know, I read the newspaper today and found out that the Toyota Prius has been finally released in Malaysia. I mean seriously, bout' time t released hybrid cars here! Pshhh..
But that's not the case.

See, I was planning to tell my dad to get a Toyota Prius since it feels like ages since they changed the stupid car. And besides, it's environment-friendly and economical. So why not, right?


Cos' I was sitting in school, waiting for my dad to come and fetch me, and suddenly I see this black car, super-new numberplate and all with my dad behind the driver's seat..And then it hit me,

He bought a stupid Fortuner. A big, gigantic Toyota Fortuner.

I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT THIS. They didn't even tell me they were buying a new car. Pffffft.
But why an SUV? Not that I have any problems with it, but why now? Is it some kinda male retail-therapy thing? Buy a car?

My parents are weird.
But :DDD have I mentioned how much I love the smell of new cars? xD

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Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Vendetta, m'dear.

Wheeee: Rufus Wainwright - Across The Universe

I had a startling epiphany today. :\

"I'm gonna go back to my insane, coffee-drinking ways. It's like as if life's just not the same anymore without 4 cups of coffee a day."

Oh yeah. Hell yeah. Once you start having stupid bursts of intuition at 7, you KNOW you have way too much times in your hands.

By the way, someone [namely, CLARE] clear this up for me, okay? Was I kinda/maybe/sorta/very high today? Louder than normal and did the swear-o-meter flash neon-Amber Rose-hair blue today? Cos' I distinctively remember squirting my soya bean drink at Shannon so that she'd shut up about God knows what and telling her I'd plan a barmitz[fudgecake] for her since she keeps on hinting ever so subtly yah right about her birthday party. And I kinda remember screaming WE'VE BEEN MORAL'D~" in class today. Excluding the swearing part, I don't normally do that on a regular basis. I don't usually volunteer to plan obscenity-themed, travesties of Jewish coming of age ceremonies.
I've answered my own question. No more Van Houten chocolate beans during Add Maths. So maddeningly saddening. No random rap songs about boyfriends in Korean either.

Something or rather someone which kinda seems too obvious to be hinted got me thinking about my sixteenth birthday. It's 2 bloody months from now and I really don't feel like throwing a Ridiculousis-suffering, FF/StarWars-themed party for it. If you think about it, or if you've been reading my blog enough, you should be wondering, WHAT SWEET SIXTEENTH? Please la, my sixteenth this year's gonna be sour milk that tastes of bitter, homemade chocolates covered in chinchilla fur. Nuff' said.

Believe me, I don't even know where the hell that came from.

Premise 1 : My hand sanitizer smells of Pengkurus.
Premise 2 : Penkurus makes people high
Conclusion : My hand sanitizer made me high.

Today's stupidity has been the result of an intoxicating, thinner-based hand sanitizer. :D

So...Shannon's BARN party. We're all gonna wear floppy straw hats and I'm gonna end up dragging Jill and hiding her in a haystack. Away from the horses, with a fedora. :D I'll bring you root beerm if you'd like it.

And dear Shannon, horse stench isn't an exception to airborne-ness, my dear.

When they said they were gonna give me the agenda, I kinda expected a standard A4 paper. And they gave me this.
It's not half an A4 paper!

Yeah, go save trees la, you people.

Mum emptied the fridge of chocolates today. Apparently, we didn't want them..
Since when do I ever turn down chocolate bars?
My life is doomed until the next 7/11 trip.

#53. Go one day without saying the word 'die' or any other word associated with it.

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Sunday, August 2, 2009

Start hell singing: Vanessa Carlton - White Houses

One of the songs I can listen to forever and long after that.

I have zero interest in studying right now. And this is bad dammit.

Alright. Measure. MEASURES.

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Saturday, August 1, 2009

I hate stupid emails sometimes

But I replied, being nice and all.

Mind you, you jackhole, but just because I support gay marriages and I love God, it doesn't make me a fudgecaking loser. So tbh, fuck you.


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