I've finally gotten over my fear of Thaipusam. Maybe its because I've grown older, or maybe it's because it all seems pretty..normal now. Its like how people of other religions cringe when they see a huge crucifix or while watching the passion play. Religions aren't the same. We have differences, you learn to accept them and get over that intense fear you had. Like moi. I no longer am afraid of kavadis :D
But hell, I'm not gonna look at the guy in chains ever [literally. he has chains licked to him]. My sister followed her friend to Batu Caves last week, for funzies and there was a guy in trance. He eyelocked with her. The thing is, one the guys sees you, YOU HAVE TO GO TO HIM. Because he's a deity. So yeah, she was really scared so she just went on to him. And he ummm..put that red kumkum on her forehead and the end. Whereas, if you DON'T go to him, he'll end up shouting and chasing you. Lol. Oh and he's in chains..because he's fricking uncontrollable. If he decided to stomp on you, chances are he will. So the guy who's holding the chains <- He's a Godsent.
I saw Thiru too! :D And effit, I hurt my feet. Gosh. SO MUCH WALKING.
[Link] :: Whazzat? *clicks* [Face turns from O_O to :O to :S to -_____________-] Are you irked?
I DON'T WANT A LINK TO A WIKIPEDIA ENTRY FOR "NUDIST". I couldn't care less if people frolicked around naked on the beach or whatever, it's their choice and I should just wear a blindfold if I actually did give a damn. It's a bit discomforting [eh? maybe we Asians are too conservative. Hell, isn't there a line between being conservative and sensible??]
But no nutcase, I DON'T WANT TO SEE A JPEG OF NUDISTS, OKAY?
I'm having an awful time getting that image out of my head.
I'm not saying it was your fault Although you could have done more
Oh you're so naive yet so
How could this be done Your such a smiling sweetheart Oh and your sweet and pretty face In such an ugly way Something so beautiful That everytime I look inside
I know that she knows that I'm not fond of asking True or false it may be She's still out to get me
I know that she knows that I'm not fond of asking True or false it may be She's still out to get me
I may say it was your fault Cause I know you could have done more
Oh you're so naive yet so
How could this be done By such a smiling sweetheart Oh and your sweet and pretty face In such an ugly way something so beautiful Everytime I look inside
I know that she knows that I'm not fond of asking True or false it may be She's still out to get me
I know that she knows that I'm not fond of asking True or false it may be She's still out to get me
How could this be done By such a smiling sweetheart
Oh you're so naive yet so
Such an ugly thing Someone so beautiful And everytime you're on his side
I know she knows that I'm not fond of asking True or false it maybe be she's still out to get me
And I know she knows that I'm not fond of asking True or false it maybe be she's still out to get me
Just don't let me down Just don't let me down Hold on to your kite Just don't let me down Just don't let me down Hold on to your kite Just don't let me down Just don't let me down Hold on to this kite Just don't let me down
you don't deserve my wrath [and hell knows I can be quite a handful], but please, I beg you, PLEASE don't tell me anything on how I should treasure my life, okay? Unlike you, I wasn't born with all the luck in the world, nor the brains or diligence like you. It isn't a vague fact that I'm not the nicest person when it comes to people, but hell, I'm not the one who's the grudgekeeper [Thank God] Like I said, you are one lucky bitch. A pretty one, a brainy one, a people-friendly one, the one 'rents would be hella proud for. Unlike me, as per usual. I'm the black sheep and I know that. I've lived up to that fact but this year, I decided to change just a bit. More nicer since that's the only one I CAN tweak. Unfortunately, it hasn't been easy and I'm struggling. The hindrances keep on targeting me front on. Which sucks, might I add. Nonetheless, I REALLY am trying. Nevermind the inane Facebook and Twitter updates. Nevermind the blogposts.
All I'm saying is, I hardly think the crown jewel should be advising the rusty kettle on being grateful.
Play a tune to melodrama. I'm sick of it. Shut up. Let me be. Let IT be. Sick of thinking. Much to sick of cognition and curiousity.
Like I said to myself, I'm sick of getting pushed around. Leave me alone :( I too, have a life that isn't too far away from crumbling right on top of me.
Fml. I just wrote a 900 worded essay just to realize that I was supposed to fit in 2 idioms. My BM teacher is going to kill me Y_Y
Meantime, while I'm away wallowing in self-pity [It's hereditary], have some The Lonely Heroes.
Dear, I CAN'T blog everything out, so I resort to gaming. An unconventional method but a useful one. I'm can't be arsed to care about what other people think about it for one. I care a hell load about what people think but when it comes to this, SOD OFF. Some people have different little channels, it could be music, or Kpop [dude it's not music, it's a universe iyhn] or alcohol but gaming is mine.
D-Dear Give me some credit, please? I put up with a hell lot in one day and no, it's not just 5+ hours of a totally different language so yeah, don't go all over your head thinking that's my problem, okay? I have my crumbling family to deal with, studies, my parents' obvious favouritism towards my sister and my mum continually treating me like an outsider. technically, when i get much of that at home, it certainly does suck that it happens in school too.
That's probably why I love tuning out and being silent. but no, QUIET DOESN'T MEAN ANGRY. If you can't get that, then Idk what to do.
For once in my life, I really feel suicidal. I need THAT PERSON to talk to. the one that nods at all the right places. Please come back.
When people start worrying about when the world might end, someone needs to remind them about hurricanes, cyclones and even the recent earthquake in Haiti. When you're too caught up thinking about whether the world's gonna end in 2012 or 2045, just you remember that those people, the ones caught in debris and concrete, their world has already ended.
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---------------- Raising hell with: Fall Out Boy - Grand Theft Autumn
It's the 15th day of January and I already feel like mowing my self over.
i'm so terribly sorry for you. please get better, please? not for me, but for your own self. i like you, as that self-centered bastard. i'm so sorry. and i wish there was more to say but this is a shockwave and please. just, please? you have no damn idea how much i want to hold you right now
do you find some kind of euphoria inflicting people like this?
Sad Ezz is beyond sad. During Sunday School just now [Shutup.], the teacher was being boring so I began doodling all over my book - which I then had to pass up ._.] and naturally, I listed out almost every [kickass] game that was coming out this year. Also, I wrote a YVGA song.
Basically, throughout the lesson my face was a combination of and and and
But then it hit me hard : I have a bloody important life-determining exam this year. Almost immediately, my mood became like --> .
Begone, SPM. Bane of my world. Was at Popular just now buying books and whatnot. My mum called me a nerd for buying so many books.
Wait, what?
My. Mum. Called. Me. A. Nerd You know there's something seriously wrong when your mother - the woman who goes batshit insane pushing you to study - calls YOU a NERD. This generally means my life at this point, is boring, kiasu and completely devoid of any form of fun. FML.
STILLLLL, that isn't gonna get me down from fun. Puh-lease lar. I'mma make a happy list of kickass things games coming out this year JUST BECAUSE.
4th Season of Heroes 6th Season of House Bioshock 2 Kingdom Hearts : Birth By Sleep Final Fantasy XIII Final Fantasy Versus XIII Final Fantasy Agito XIII
Hell, Fabula Nova Crystallis
MGMT - Congratulations Starcraft 2
God of War III Alice in Wonderland Toy Story 3 A Nightmare on Elm Street
Prince of Persia: The Sands of Time Transformers: War for Cybertron GLEE!!! Bayonetta
YAYS! Most mainstream song of my playlist. Nuhh, I've pretty much set the record for most latest time to listen to this song :- 3 months after it was released on Malaysian radios. Since I'm an electronica-junkhead like that, it IS an awesome song.
1st day of school was so MEH-worthy. Not only did I ultimately convince myself that I am in fact, one huge potload of mean, evil, btchy, and miserable but at the same time, I re-realized why I don't miss school much. Except for recess, I don't miss it much. Yeah, I'm a miserable twat who finds joy in other people's misery and yes, I like being the mean idiot that I am, I like telling people to sod off, I'm incapable of being nice because I'm depraved. Oh and I hate altruists. Geez. Here I thought "Hey, maybe the new year won't be so bad. Maybe some random alignment of stars or whatnot's gonna make me a bit more patient" but no.
It doesn't work that way? Fine, so be it. Labels like that, I will be.
She is right, it IS tiring. One mistake, JUST ONE [or 2. whatever, I'm impatient and defensive] MISTAKE, and you're all set for life.. Official witch. Baddie. Villain fit for any Coen Brothers' movie.
MEHHHHH. So be it. You think I'm mean? Sure.
Anyway, moving on to less [x]-inducing things :
GLEE !!
E! did some kind of commentary on it, I figured that Glee would kinda suck, as did 90210 [stick acting -_-].
But I was wrong. In fact, after previews and reviews, I'm officially convinced that Glee is anything but sucky. IT'S PRETTY DARN AWESOME! The best part is that it's not like that horrendous High School Musical load of bull. If there actually is a decent musical out there these days, Glee has got to be it.
It's funny, realistic [Seriously HSM, cafeterias aren't gigantic enough to burst out singing and dancing at random], and get this, THEY CAN ACTUALLY SING. Okay, fine. Some of their renditions suck, but hell, Gold Digger was really good.
Bloody hell, I ACTUALLY LOVE this version. I hated the real one :D
I'm definitely going to be doing that lame "L" sign with JiaYun tomorrow :D
Edit. WTF? HE SAID LOUIS VUITTON? As in LOUIS. WITH THE S? *whacks*
"The brilliant light overhead was still blinding-bright, and yet I could plainly see the glowing strands of the filaments inside the bulb. I could see each color of the rainbow in the white light, and, at the very edge of the spectrum, an eighth color I had no name for. Behind the light, I could distinguish the individual grains in the dark wood ceiling above. In front of it, I could see the dust motes in the air, the sides the light touched, and the dark sides, distinct and separate. They spun like little planets, moving around each other in a celestial dance."
And there you have it, a 6ish year old mystery unfathomable to any sane human mind : What the flying fuck was Stephenie Meyer thinking of when she wrote Twilight.
>.> There's currently this HUGE monitor lizard stuck in my drain. No shiet, IN MY DRAIN. He's stuck and I know not of what gender he is, but meh. I've named him Adam. I think Adam is pretty much dead now since he's been stuck in the drainpipe for nearly 6 hours now. He's probably scared of my dogs, THEY JUST WON'T LET HIM ESCAPE :(